Demons
My partner turned to me today and, lovingly, asked if my demons were back. I hadn’t noticed the signs, the pullovers at night and that change in the air for […]
My partner turned to me today and, lovingly, asked if my demons were back. I hadn’t noticed the signs, the pullovers at night and that change in the air for […]
I don’t know where to start. We are in self-isolation after a stressful five days in Central America; a long-awaited trip to celebrate a milestone birthday cut short due to […]
Going back across the ocean doesn’t happen as much for me now as it used to. The distance, the time, the money… it adds up to too much effort, especially […]
“A minute of deep breathing can reduce stress,” my smart watch tells me. “Be still, and bring your attention to your breath.” For sixty seconds, I attempt to drown out […]
Elul is far from upon us, but the shift in the air at this time of year gives my body some sort of primitive signal to start preparing for the […]
The drive to tell my story has, over the years, experienced peaks and valleys which come out of nowhere and surprise me each time I’m compelled to share. Coming from […]
I’m upstairs, working on a deck that I feel intense pressure to finish but adrift in the massive task that lays before me. The children, energetic until the end of […]
The bedtime routine is different these days. Long after the children have fallen asleep I tiptoe into each of their rooms, youngest to oldest, to gently connect my hand to […]
I miss them so very much. My life, my heart. Nothing helps anymore.
For the first time since I was not “C”, I let someone peek over the mechitza. I’ve cultivated a very different persona, we’ll call her Jennifer, for my alter ego; […]